Jay and Meg’s wedding

I was so upset writing my blog about gay rights that I forgot to say what a great day Saturday was, it was jay and Megan’s wedding!

It was good to see Jay and Megan so happy they both deserve one another! It was so good to see some good friends that I don’t get out to see much like Jason, Scotty, Lucas, Matt, Shannon, Devin, and most of all DAN who I have not seen months. Basically we all just sat around and talked, drank, took shots, talked, drank, took shots,

talked, drank, and had an all around good time.

Some of us played some games: like get the beer cap in Barb’s tits.

It was an all around GOOD time! I wish events like this didn’t only happen once in a while!

Care Bares and Rainbow Bright

Friday night Nick and I cleaned the house and went to bed. I had to be at work at 6:45am. Saturday, Nick cut down all the trees that were along our driveway and pushed around 20 yards of 3/4 gravel. Our driveway is HUGE now and we could possibly fit 15-20 cars in it apposed to 3 or 4 cars.

Saturday when I got of work I came home and helped Nick by mowing the yards and weed whacking. That was an experience. I had the god damn weed whacker. Have you ever used on of these things? All it did was make my arms, face, and clothing GREEN and I have little cuts along my arms and now look like a drug addict. My favorite pair of sunglasses are scratc too! Well I guess whats important is that my yard is starting look a lot better!

Around 7:00pm Jay, Meg, Josh, his sister Johnny, her friend, and Melissa came over. It was nice out and the sun was still warm. Josh, Johnny and I left to go to the dollar store to get some glow stick and I think between the 3 of us we got about $20 worth. We also grabbed some silly string. When we got back we ambushed everybody on the back porch with glow in the dark Silly String. It was fun. Jay ran to his truck and got a “big boys” can of “silly string” called a fire extinguisher. Later that night we ended up cutting the ends of our glow stick and that turned into a glow stick fight! The next morning or yard was COVERED with white powder, colorful oil from the glow stick and silly string. It looked the Care Bares and Rainbow Bright went to war.

My weekend was great, I have GREAT friends!

I feel sad though because I never got to see Denise! I was going to go Friday but didn’t get out of work till almost 4:00pm. I didn’t was to go out to the bars because I would drink and it was Cinco de drinko day and cops were EVERY WARE!!

Denise, I will make it up to you FOR SURE when you move here! I’m super sorry!

A day of beauty

Emmy sent me a text to see if I wanted to go to Crater lake but since the roads were probably still not the best we decided to go to Applegate lake. We took the dog and hiked around all day.  The weather could not have been any more permitting with only a few clouds that scattered across the sky. The sun was hot on our faces but the wind did a good job at cooling our body temperatures.

It was beautiful and absolutely peaceful. After the dog was accepting of the “perfect stick” we let him chase it many times swimming after in in the water. We drove around in 4 wheel drive exploring more than ordinary sights and hiked along crystal clear waters until the many trails led us to dead ends. By the time the dog fell over from exhaustion we were ready to go home as well.

On the way into town we stopped and picked up coronas and limes and sat outside to enjoy the last bit of sun until we were off to meet up with Friends. I’m overly tired and I’m looking forward to bed!

On my way home I had an incident with my ass hole neighbor that pushed me to file harassment charges against him. The dick even made my husband so mad that Nick yelled at him for many minutes. I have heard Nick yell only once, I found it very hilarious! In the morning I’ll fill everybody in on the incident. As for now I can hear my bed taunting me with it comfort!

REASONS I KNOW I’M HAPPY

I was bored at work today and was thinking about if I go back to school what it is EXACTLY I want to do.  I have 2 years under my belt including some criminal justice and basic prerequisites.  I was going to go starting in January but I couldn’t decide on what I want to do.  I would LOVE to finish what I started and pick back up with criminal justice to work with troubled youth, but I start thinking about the future and I’m not sure if I can seem myself with that forever.  I do know what ever I decide to do is to work with people directly.  Weather it’s some type of a counselor or  physiologist with youth or adults, I know this the way I need to go.  I feel that I can succeed in this because I know what it takes to be happy for myself.  I know everybody is going to need different things in order to be happy but I don’t think you can offer any kind advice unless you know it works. 

 

REASONS I KNOW I’M HAPPY:

 

I know that I’m happy because I filter out the bad that comes in my life and let the good strain though.  I allow myself time for me. I allow myself 2 days a week devoted to being with my friends.  I devote 3 days to my husband and being at home with him and 2 days to either being with my husband and my friends at once or family.  Family fits in above all this though!!  I’m fairly confident in myself which I know many women lack.  I know  what I need to fix or work on, a.k.a.: my weight.  However I have also allowed myself to be at the weight I am, so if I’m not going to work on it I need to feel confident to be happy.  I have amazing friends, all of which every time I see I get hugs from and I LOVE it.  I feel like I can tell ALL my friends just about ANYTHING ‘cause the are absolutely ASWOME!!  I love my girl time I have Emmy and or Barbs once a week, it makes me feel important!  My husband lets me spend as much of his money as I want as long as the bills get paid!   He wants me to be as happy as I can and I know it.  I guess what I’m trying to say is that confidence makes people happy.  They more you have, the less you have to worry about and the more time you have to be happy.    

 

This brings me to having children.   

I would love to possibly have 1 or 2 sometime in the next 5 to 10 years.  I want to wait as long as I can.  I feel the older you are the wiser you are therefore the longer I wait the more I will have to offer my future children.  I feel that you should have as little problems in your life as possible to show your children confidence at their early age.  This should some questions up for the many people that keep asking me about kids!!!   

 

Anyways I guess this whole blog is basically what was flowing through my head today while I was at the coffee stand. 

Please learn from my mistake.

I have 30 more minutes until I go to my last class (many of you know what this is) and only $130.00 away to having my $3000.00 paid off for all this shit.  I’m so glad it’s just about over.  I’m getting really excited and I can feel the weight that has been on my should for almost a years now starting to lift up, its almost off!!  I think the amount of money I have paid for my mistake is enough for me to not do what I did to cause all this EVER AGAIN!  I do wish that many of my friends could have felt my burden for the past year as well so they could learn from it too, but I guess this is a decision and a mistake they will have to make and learn from on their own. 

Spring is here!!!

Dan and Zara bought Nick and I little baby ducky yesterday so we spent many minutes admiring the cute little guy.  His name is Co jack-Bill, or just Bill for short.  He is dark brown and fuzzy with an unstable awkward balance as he wakes around on his large webbed feet.  

 

Last night was warm and we enjoyed the company of good friends for several hours over barbequed hamburgers and veggies.  We had a fire going in the outside fireplace, and a tropical wind blew softly throughout the evening.  The small groups of people transfer back and fourth from the kitchen to the back patio constantly changing the group and conversations.  It was a long enjoyable evening. 

 

This morning was amazing.  I laid in bed with the window wide open and listed to the Spring rain pour down, it was so peaceful.  It was a good way to start a Sunday. 

In good spirits!

It’s been a few days since I have wrote.  I find myself sitting in front of the computer nearly every day starting to type a new blog.  I type a few sentences and then I erase everything because I think of something else to do.  I’m going to force myself to stay here until I have typed out everything I wanted to say.

 

My past 7 days have been really good.  Thursday Nick and I went to Riverside Car and Truck to look at a Nissan Xterra and decided to make and offer.  They liked our offer and we put the paperwork through for financing.  They called me the next morning (Friday) and told me I could come and pick up the car.  So I got a 2002 TOP OF THE LINE SUPERCHARGED YELLOW Xterra.  I LOVE IT!!  After I got the car I picked up my friend and we went out to my mom’s to have a couple “drinks” and show her the new car.  After my friend and I went to Mr. Smith’s to meet some other friends for more drinks.  I wasn’t really feeling the whole bar and drinking scene so we decided to leave and take a drive up the mountain to see how the 4X4 capabilities were on the new rig.  They were good.

 

Saturday and Sunday Nick, Dan, and Zara and I went to brooking and it was absolutely amazing, romantic, relaxing, rainy, and wonderful.  Since Sunday I have not been up to too much but I have been in a great mood. 

 

Hopefully this mood won’t go away before the holidays.

A little of this, a little of that.

Last night was Halloween and it was unfortunately not as exciting as I had hoped.  I picked up 4 friends to take to
Ashland.  One of my friends was unfortunately REALLY SUPER drunk!  She was being really mean and doing stupid drunk things while the rest of us were trying to have fun.  That sucked and I never really started to get in a good mood till I was talking to Colleen.  It was fun, I have never really sat and had fun drunken conversations with her and found it very enjoyable.  The friend of mine that was being irritating did apologize to me today and that made me feel much better about the whole situation.  I did wake up with the worst headache I have had in long long time today and I’m going to assume that it was because I didn’t drink anything other than wine and a few other drinks last night and wine in notorious for giving me headaches.  

On a much better note I’m VERY excited for this weekend.  Tonight while I was at Albertsons I saw all the poor little left over pumpkins that nobody wanted with a sign that read: “FREE, take what you want”, this gave me and excellent Idea.  I came home and told Nick about all the Freebies at Albertsons and he had our friend Dan come over with his truck and they went and picked up about 50 pumpkins.  We are not too sure what on earth we are going to do with them but I doubt they will be in tact after Friday night.  Saturday we are going to Brookings
Oregon with our friends Dan and Zara.  I found the BEST place to stay at for an amazing price.  It’s has a queen size bed, a sofa sleeper, another queen size bed in a loft and a completely separate private guest bedroom.  It has TV with cable, a fireplace, BBQ, a forested creek view and a HOT TUB!!!  All for only $130 plus tax.  We will probably leave around 10:00am and stop at the red woods for pictures and a nice hike before we get to Brookings for our nice relaxing stay at the resort. 

Good night, don’t let the bed bugs bite!

Friends aren’t always who you think they are.

I decided to start up with the whole “blog” thing because it feels good to write (or type in this case) your feelings.  I have had so many ups and a few lows in the past month that typing is much easier than bitching about them to friends.  I’m not complaining about my life or anything thing but it just seems that that for one bad thing that happens it can tend to over power a lot of the good things that happen.  I don’t typically dwell on negativity but lately I have been a bit irritated. 

I am at a loss… I mean I know that we can’t always keep our promises or our plans but it just hurts when the person who you think is your friend is just in reality an acquaintance.  I’m not by any means saying that I don’t care about certain friends but when you make a plan with somebody and continually follow up with your plan and then at the very last minute just ignore calls, texts or whatever it pretty much hurts and makes me feel a bit upset.

I do have a lot of GREAT friends and have found a lot of new friendships lately but I have just felt a bit crazy in the past few weeks I guess. 

Anyhow, I’ll try to not be so negative in my blogs to come.

PS, don’t forget to water your plants.