My new friends is gone….

After having “buddy” for almost a week he’s gone. Saturday we were siting around outside playing with him and throwing his ball.  About 15-20 minutes later he was not here any more. He never once while I had him tried to run off or wonder away from the house. Emmy and I walked all up and down Lozier lane calling for him but he never came. I guess this explains why he was such a great dogie and was a stray…

Governor signs gay rights bills

So I mistakenly was looking on the Mail Tribune (local news paper) website and came across the link Governor signs gay rights bills I clicked on it and it took me to a form where people were discussing gay rights. The first post in the form says:

“This is a sad day in Oregon History. My heart weeps for the future of our children and true marriage. Marriage is ONE MAN and ONE WOMAN. Anything else is NOT marriage. Call it anything else but it will NEVER be marriage. They may have won this battle but we know who wins the war. “

I got mad and wrote back. I would usually just be angry and accept that I have different beliefs than them and not do anything about it but I created an account and wrote I back the following:

My heart weeps for the future of YOUR children since you are sheltering them from reality, possible friendships, and teaching them to DISCRIMINATE against somebody because they are gay. Marriage is a relationship in which TWO PEOPLE have pledged themselves to one another. A relationship is formed by loving and caring for one another and does not matter who you find love in and who loves you as long as you both are happy, GAY OR STRAIGHT!

I find this sad that this is how you feel. I’m a happily married woman who is married to a man, however I have many Gay friends and Gay couples that if they were not in my life I would be missing out on some amazing friendships and amazing HUMAN BEINGS.

I am one to not argue my political beliefs because I know everybody thinks his or her beliefs are right. I would rather spare the argument that nobody will win at. However, I felt I needed to say something. I think I’m just tired of hearing the word “gay” “gays” like they are a breed of people. Just like somebody who might breed Labridor retrievers would talk about their “Lab” or “Labs”. This just disgusts me that people can’t accept.

REASONS I KNOW I’M HAPPY

I was bored at work today and was thinking about if I go back to school what it is EXACTLY I want to do.  I have 2 years under my belt including some criminal justice and basic prerequisites.  I was going to go starting in January but I couldn’t decide on what I want to do.  I would LOVE to finish what I started and pick back up with criminal justice to work with troubled youth, but I start thinking about the future and I’m not sure if I can seem myself with that forever.  I do know what ever I decide to do is to work with people directly.  Weather it’s some type of a counselor or  physiologist with youth or adults, I know this the way I need to go.  I feel that I can succeed in this because I know what it takes to be happy for myself.  I know everybody is going to need different things in order to be happy but I don’t think you can offer any kind advice unless you know it works. 

 

REASONS I KNOW I’M HAPPY:

 

I know that I’m happy because I filter out the bad that comes in my life and let the good strain though.  I allow myself time for me. I allow myself 2 days a week devoted to being with my friends.  I devote 3 days to my husband and being at home with him and 2 days to either being with my husband and my friends at once or family.  Family fits in above all this though!!  I’m fairly confident in myself which I know many women lack.  I know  what I need to fix or work on, a.k.a.: my weight.  However I have also allowed myself to be at the weight I am, so if I’m not going to work on it I need to feel confident to be happy.  I have amazing friends, all of which every time I see I get hugs from and I LOVE it.  I feel like I can tell ALL my friends just about ANYTHING ‘cause the are absolutely ASWOME!!  I love my girl time I have Emmy and or Barbs once a week, it makes me feel important!  My husband lets me spend as much of his money as I want as long as the bills get paid!   He wants me to be as happy as I can and I know it.  I guess what I’m trying to say is that confidence makes people happy.  They more you have, the less you have to worry about and the more time you have to be happy.    

 

This brings me to having children.   

I would love to possibly have 1 or 2 sometime in the next 5 to 10 years.  I want to wait as long as I can.  I feel the older you are the wiser you are therefore the longer I wait the more I will have to offer my future children.  I feel that you should have as little problems in your life as possible to show your children confidence at their early age.  This should some questions up for the many people that keep asking me about kids!!!   

 

Anyways I guess this whole blog is basically what was flowing through my head today while I was at the coffee stand. 

Please learn from my mistake.

I have 30 more minutes until I go to my last class (many of you know what this is) and only $130.00 away to having my $3000.00 paid off for all this shit.  I’m so glad it’s just about over.  I’m getting really excited and I can feel the weight that has been on my should for almost a years now starting to lift up, its almost off!!  I think the amount of money I have paid for my mistake is enough for me to not do what I did to cause all this EVER AGAIN!  I do wish that many of my friends could have felt my burden for the past year as well so they could learn from it too, but I guess this is a decision and a mistake they will have to make and learn from on their own. 

St. Patty’s day and family

It was St. Patty’s day yesterday and unfortunately it was nothing like last year… I couldn’t go out because I somehow managed to leave my ID and debit card at the drive though at the bank on Friday and since I had to work all Saturday I didn’t get a chance to go pick it up. After work last night Nick and I went to two BBQ’s but the best one was with my family out to my grandmothers with my Uncle Davey and my little cousin Lexi along with my mom and step dad. Dinner was GREAT: Steak, shrimp, artichokes, salad, wild rice… Great conversation as well over some drinks. One downfall of the day though was that Colleen and David were in Seattle and could not join us. All in all it was a great day though, the weather was beautiful and I got to spend time with my family.

“The love of a family is life’s greatest blessing”

Men are simple…

It always seems to be the important things in life we tend to take for granted.  My husband is the most amazing man, as a husband should be but I don’t think many people actually have what they expect a husband to be in their own husbands. 

 

Everyday when Nick gets home from work the first thing he does is look for me to give me a hug and a kiss, tell me LOVES me and ask how MY day was despite if his day was shitty because he IS interested in how MY day was.  I was listing to some statistics on the radio that Dr. Laura was reading a few nights ago and 70% of married couples don’t even stop what the are doing to acknowledge that their significant other had even walked in the door after a long day of work while only 10% percent who did only said hi/hello.  This leaves only 10% for the couples who give hugs/kisses and discuss each others day.  I see this as sad, this minority should be a MAJORITY.  This is also probably why divorce rates are up!

 

I’m sure some of you are thinking “Dr. Laura”???  I enjoy very much listening to her.  There is A LOT of stuff I don’t agree about with her but she breaks down complex issues and makes them simple.  For example: Men are simple, she says.  Too many women complain about petty things like:  he didn’t ask me to go with him, he didn’t notice my new hair cut/color, he didn’t buy me a nice present, he wants to hang out with the “guys”,  he doesn’t care, he does not give me any attention.   Men are simple because they don’t want drama as us women do.  They do love use otherwise they would not be with us.  As for women if we really feel the examples above and we don’t want to make changes and accept them then why do you stay with our men???

 

Anyway, the whole reason for this blog is because most of the calls I hear Dr. Laura get are from women complaining about their husbands/boyfriends.  People (Women) need to lighten up and look more on the bright side of your relationship.  As for me, I’m just plain old lucky when it comes to a caring husband.  He lets me be me and who I want to be.  He encourages me to do what I want to do, he trusts me, and most of all I know he loves me.

 

 

In good spirits!

It’s been a few days since I have wrote.  I find myself sitting in front of the computer nearly every day starting to type a new blog.  I type a few sentences and then I erase everything because I think of something else to do.  I’m going to force myself to stay here until I have typed out everything I wanted to say.

 

My past 7 days have been really good.  Thursday Nick and I went to Riverside Car and Truck to look at a Nissan Xterra and decided to make and offer.  They liked our offer and we put the paperwork through for financing.  They called me the next morning (Friday) and told me I could come and pick up the car.  So I got a 2002 TOP OF THE LINE SUPERCHARGED YELLOW Xterra.  I LOVE IT!!  After I got the car I picked up my friend and we went out to my mom’s to have a couple “drinks” and show her the new car.  After my friend and I went to Mr. Smith’s to meet some other friends for more drinks.  I wasn’t really feeling the whole bar and drinking scene so we decided to leave and take a drive up the mountain to see how the 4X4 capabilities were on the new rig.  They were good.

 

Saturday and Sunday Nick, Dan, and Zara and I went to brooking and it was absolutely amazing, romantic, relaxing, rainy, and wonderful.  Since Sunday I have not been up to too much but I have been in a great mood. 

 

Hopefully this mood won’t go away before the holidays.

You can call me Mrs. Black

I knew from the beginning that when I decided to start this blog that I would be very horrible at staying consistent with it, but I’m going to try very hard from now on. 

I am officially “Lauren Leigh “Black” now and I’m loving every minute of married life.  Nothing has change at all really other than my name but that seems to be the first and most asked question by others.  Our Wedding and reception was October 14^th 2006 at the Applegate River Lodge in Applegate
Oregon.  The whole day was amazing.  The weather was perfect and just about everybody attended.  I drank a lot and socialized with friends and family the whole night.  I’m very anxious to see the pictures that the photographers took but I’m also trying to patiently wait for them.   

I’m still not working yet but I plan to start looking soon.  I have just been painting my house and rearranging furniture.  I will post some pictures when I’m an all done painting and I figure out how to so do.

 

 

Friends aren’t always who you think they are.

I decided to start up with the whole “blog” thing because it feels good to write (or type in this case) your feelings.  I have had so many ups and a few lows in the past month that typing is much easier than bitching about them to friends.  I’m not complaining about my life or anything thing but it just seems that that for one bad thing that happens it can tend to over power a lot of the good things that happen.  I don’t typically dwell on negativity but lately I have been a bit irritated. 

I am at a loss… I mean I know that we can’t always keep our promises or our plans but it just hurts when the person who you think is your friend is just in reality an acquaintance.  I’m not by any means saying that I don’t care about certain friends but when you make a plan with somebody and continually follow up with your plan and then at the very last minute just ignore calls, texts or whatever it pretty much hurts and makes me feel a bit upset.

I do have a lot of GREAT friends and have found a lot of new friendships lately but I have just felt a bit crazy in the past few weeks I guess. 

Anyhow, I’ll try to not be so negative in my blogs to come.

PS, don’t forget to water your plants.